Been a while, long time.

I am going to slowly phase out of the coffee related blog as I don’t really feel like keeping up a blog about my career/job anymore. I would rather write about/document other things in my life besides my job.

Also, I need to draw more, paint more, photograph more then write on this blog more. So, this is a page turning, as essentially I need to shift some things around in my life in order to feel more fulfilled. Ever since my mother passed away on May 25th, I feel the urge to just be more active in my own life.

I’ve done it.

finally.

I feel good about the progress. I feel good about the fact that when i get home after work, I am still able to sit for an hour or two, and draw. It’s coming in small air-filled rushes of energy, but it’s coming.

Art: Love and Hate

Every once in a while I find myself needing to make art. Life-blood sort of necessity. But then I sit, and I blank out. Will it always be like this? On a sleepless night, I think about this. I can picture myself sitting at my desk and making myself draw. I need to realize that no matter how much I try to run away, or shove this deep down, it will always float to the surface (or claw its way up).

At least photographs save my ass from time to time.

Stewart Park, Ithaca, NY 2008

Lies

I lie to myself sometimes. I told myself I would work on art today, but I didn’t. Instead I helped my wife make bread, and watched a whole lot of Bridezilla. HA.

But I did do some research for the piece I am working on. So it wasn’t a total lie. Besides, I hate lies. Better to be honest even if it makes you an asshole lazy artist (like I was sorta, today)and lies only get easier to tell, so I guess this is my confessional, cuz the lyin’s gotta stop here. I’m too old for it.

heart machine

this is an old piece. I am working on a new piece and I have to photograph a new painting and upload it.

the piece I am working on is a commission from a wonderful friend. She gets to pick it up when she comes to visit.

slow and steady

I started a new drawing. I know I need to purchase a camera soon. I have a whole series of drawings I would like to finish by the spring.

I will post them as they get finished. One by one by one.

nothin’ yet

don’t think i am not thinking about it right now. I am taking baby, baby steps to start this thing called being creative again. Work is wearing me down, and sometimes I cannot even think with the artistic mind. It’s bizarre. Gotta get rid of this mild depression/stress first.

been collecting images both drawn and photographed to start a real library of visual stimulation.

stay tuned.